In this Theme, Marcus Fair describes having a disease of obsession—an obsession for certain things, be it food, chocolate or computer games—from the time of his youth. ’Whatever I enjoyed, I kicked the arse out of, until it kicked the arse out of me.’
Marcus went through a progression of substances from alcohol, to gas and solvents, cannabis, speed and acid and ecstasy. He developed a love affair with substance-full weekends. There was always an excess about him.
He and his friends were looking for the ‘off-switch’ to help them come down from the stimulant high they experienced repeatedly. They tried all sorts of substances with no success. Then they found it… and Marcus began a 25-year addiction to heroin.
Heroin is a very honest drug, says Marcus. With alcohol, you can be in denial about your problem for years. ‘But with heroin, you know you’re f…ed.’ After a few weeks of using, Marcus felt he had the flu. He tried heroin with a friend and the flu disappeared. The penny dropped.